Living with Miracles

Recently someone asked me "Why are you so happy?"  

That is a big question with many answers. But I summed it up in a quote:

"There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."

 ~Albert Einstein

I live with miracles. 

I am not dancing on rainbows every day. I have hard, hard days. Yesterday when this person asked me that, little did she know I was having a really hard morning. My heart was heavy and it was weighing me way down. But I did what I do when I have a heavy heart like that, I give it to Him. I have learned through these last few years that only when I give it all to Him is when I can feel peace and happiness.  

 I have learned a lot this year. I always wanted a large family. At least four children but hoped for five. However, my child bearing years came to an end way sooner than I had planned. After my hysterectomy this summer, I went through a grieving process. I grieved that fourth child that I thought I would for sure have. Then I felt guilty for feeling grief when I had three beautiful children. I prayed hard and received peace. Also during that time, I fell more in love with my husband who cared for me and the kids so well when my recovery took longer than we though it would. I am eternally grateful for his love and support. 

 Once I accepted that my little family was complete, I felt more free. I made a choice to enjoy the miracles that I have, that I am blessed to call mine. I want to eat up this time I have with them while they are still little. I love going on adventures with them and making new memories. 

 My prayer is that they remember their childhood with magical memories. 

 Today I am happy.
I am happy because I love and I am loved. 

I am happy because I am surrounded by miracles each and every day.